So I have finally devised a sensible plan for my future that has proper taken the stress of me, and made me realise there is no point in rushing things. The final year of university has been hell, putting me through so much stress for various reasons and triggered a mental breakdown and my depression in the process, so safe to say I need a break. However instead of just calling it quits I had a good old chat with my mamma and we came up with a plan/goal to aim for, so the plan is too take a year out and move back to the City next September to do my post-graduate.
It is crazy how much setting up this goal really cheered me up and motivated me, and made me feel less useless. As my original plan was to stay in the City no matter what, but I am so glad i am doing it this way as it is what is going to work best for me. Also, if people can’t understand my decision, then they can’t understand that what is right for you is not necessarily going to be the same for me. I have accepted that not everyone has to live life at the same pace, and you do not have to try to keep up with other people just for the sake of it (because that will backfire on you in the future).
So I am taking it day by day, but to stop the boredom or shitty feeling of not being good enough kicking in I have made sure I have plans sorted for the summer, so that I have things too look forward too. Starting of with this weekend, me and my bestie Sophie are heading to Blackpool for the weekend, to mess around like little kids and have a laugh. Having these small plans really does motivate your day to day life, so it is something I 100% recommend for people who were struggling to get out of bed / through the day like I was. Also look out for a cute post about Blackpool once I am back, hoping to get some good photos as well so watch this space.